Breathe In

It's easy. Just breathe in and then breathe in again.
It's the breathing out that's hard.
Like the falling and the stop.
Except we never stop.
And it kills us anyway.

So I breathe in.
To take my mind off what I'm doing
And how I'm dying.
And why I got up again today
And I'm trying to think of a reason that isn't you.

And we breathe in.
And it seems easy
Although it's freezing, I don't mind
That we're out here, in the middle of the night
Sleep won't come easy. Not like the smoke from my cigarette.

Breathe it all in.
The toxins and the poisons
The diseases and the death row sentence
Rolled up paper and filtered through my lips into my mind
Where the nightmares wait in kind
They're not so kind.

Because I can't breathe them out.