Life is Ugly; It is not Poetry.

I get headaches when I smoke
I get headaches when I don't smoke

I feel sick when I eat
I feel sick when I don't eat

I want to be drunk when I'm alone
I want to be high when I'm drunk
I want to be nothing when I'm high

I want to throw-up when I'm sober
But I don't
I wan't to hold it in when I'm not sober
But I can't

I want to know peace
I want to know unity
I want to know understanding
I want to know assurance
But I don't.